I was excited about yesterdays marketing strategy meeting. I was thinking it would be about the directions they wanted to go in, creating brand consistency and just planning for the future. WELP, the future was that I (and the rest of the marketing department) was no longer needed, and they have decided to outsource all their marketing. That as so quick. I was just starting my 3rd week.
A few things ran through my head...
1. this is a joke- where is the camera crew
2. oh- this is serious
3. At least this wasn't a personal decision- I wasn't there long enough to have this be a personal thing.
4. WHY did you hire me is this an option on the table?
5. well... damn. now what.
So now what?
Well, after the mini meltdown on the phone with my dad (who generally has hit or miss advice) said YOU ARE KIDDING! wow... He further went to say it was okay for me to cry and grieve this situation because it was some shit- but only today (well, yesterday) could I feel bad about the situation. I mean this was my dream opportunity- it was suppose to be my stepping stone into a great new designing future. He listened as I explained how the whole shenanigan went down... I did feel much better and attempted to call my mom and sisters to let them know what happened. of course- everyone was working... so i sent a text... and as mine did- their jaws dropped.
Why i'm not freaking out...
I had a back up plan to move to ATL with my sister by the end of my lease... now that is an option again. well the only thing on the table and what i'm doing.
How this was such a blessing in disguise.
My whole reason for looking for a new job was to get out of sales. If i didn't get a new job by mid june I was going to move to ATL and try to find work down there. I was going to quit, or be out of sales regardless at that point. By quitting I couldn't file for unemployment. So Now I get what I think is my dream job! Graphic designer, moving closer to my sister and her family and church. It was all lining up as I had prayed and hoped.
It was so funny because I began planning... and of course- you plan, God laughs. And boy did He get a kick out of this. I was having a conversation with several people about how I plan things and everyone was saying I should live more int he present... more in the NOW... and BAM!!!! hello PRESENT!
I have been blessed again and can only thank God for all the good that will come out of this. I have decided to be happy about this situation because there is really nothing I can do about it. Summer Vacation? Time to blog and get back some of my creativity? Time to travel? Time to relax? Time to bond with my sisters? Time to say goodbye to what was... and hello to what is coming.
I am just trying to take this day by day now. I am also trying to downsize my belongings and learn to make it- others have, why can't I?
