...how things change

So yesterday i was FIRED!!!! WTH. I just started and now all my plans are to shit. 

I was excited about yesterdays marketing strategy meeting. I was thinking it would be about the directions they wanted to go in, creating brand consistency and just planning for the future. WELP, the future was that I (and the rest of the marketing department) was no longer needed, and they have decided to outsource all their marketing. That as so quick. I was just starting my 3rd week. 

A few things ran through my head...

1. this is a joke- where is the camera crew

2. oh- this is serious

3. At least this wasn't a personal decision- I wasn't there long enough to have this be a personal thing.

4. WHY did you hire me is this an option on the table?

5. well... damn. now what.

So now what? 

Well, after the mini meltdown on the phone with my dad (who generally has hit or miss advice) said YOU ARE KIDDING! wow... He further went to say it was okay for me to cry and grieve this situation because it was some shit- but only today (well, yesterday) could I feel bad about the situation. I mean this was my dream opportunity- it was suppose to be my stepping stone into a great new designing future. He listened as I explained how the whole shenanigan went down... I did feel much better and attempted to call my mom and sisters to let them know what happened. of course- everyone was working... so i sent a text... and as mine did- their jaws dropped.

Why i'm not freaking out...

I had a back up plan to move to ATL with my sister by the end of my lease... now that is an option again. well the only thing on the table and what i'm doing. 

How this was such a blessing in disguise.

My whole reason for looking for a new job was to get out of sales. If i didn't get a new job by mid june I was going to move to ATL and try to find work down there. I was going to quit, or be out of sales regardless at that point. By quitting I couldn't file for unemployment. So Now I get what I think is my dream job! Graphic designer, moving closer to my sister and her family and church. It was all lining up as I had prayed and hoped. 

It was so funny because I began planning... and of course- you plan, God laughs. And boy did He get a kick out of this. I was having a conversation with several people about how I plan things and everyone was saying I should live more int he present... more in the NOW... and BAM!!!! hello PRESENT! 

I have been blessed again and can only thank God for all the good that will come out of this. I have decided to be happy about this situation because there is really nothing I can do about it. Summer Vacation? Time to blog and get back some of my creativity? Time to travel? Time to relax? Time to bond with my sisters? Time to say goodbye to what was... and hello to what is coming. 

I am just trying to take this day by day now. I am also trying to downsize my belongings and learn to make it- others have, why can't I?

Day 2

Today was another good day. I am getting a little settled and trying to manage expectations of me. I feel like the people before me could whip up something in a few minutes, but it was crappy and not creative or interesting to look at really. So now I feel like their time table is a little off and I guess I have to figure out what my limitations are.


It is a little overwhelming the amount of things they need done, but also very exciting. There really is not idle time, which is a great change. I like to feel productive and busy.


I am still trying to get the timing down with leaving. My alarm kept going off this morning, and I was thinking in my head... oh I can get up at 7am... NOOOOOO I was suppose to leave at like 7:15am! I ended up leaving around 7:25am. I still made it to work at a decent time, but I definitely have to try to do better tomorrow. I pre-packed up my gym bag and lunch, so that should help out with getting me out the door. I also pre-measured my protein shake mix. I take my shower at night and roll my hair- although tonight I didn't because I plan on wearing my hair back tomorrow.


Also, Zumba KICKED MY BUTT tonight! I burned 1285 cal. I did 10 minutes of running, 45 min bike ride (18 miles!!!)... followed by 1 hour of Zumba. I am really going to miss the LTF classes when I move.


on to tomorrow.

Day 1

My mom suggested I journal (again... she says this literally every other month). Anyway, today, I felt she had a point.


My life is blessed (Thank you God). I truly give thanks to Him when I wake up and before I go to sleep, because the blessing keep coming and I don't want them to ever stop. My Joy is overflowing.


So why a blog today? Today, May 23, 2011, was my very first day at my new job as a Graphic Designer! Over the past, almost two years, I have been doing sales for a technology company. It just wasn't for me in the end and I was blessed (yet, again) with an opportunity to get just what I needed and prayed for, and then some.


I really did not know what to expect for the first day. It was a definite change form my first post-grad position. The space is a little cramped, but the people seem to be very friendly and focused. I was really excited to learn that everyone on my new team was black. Seriously, coming from white suburbia on the outskirts of Buffalo- I have always been sticking out like a sore thumb. That is something that I do like about living in Maryland these past couple years, is that I am not the only black person trying to make moves like me.


This is really the start I have been looking for in my life. I feel these past two years since graduation have been a great learning experience about myself and now I was ready for God to continue to open more doors on the path he has for me. I am really understanding that things will not happen until He wants them to, and often for MANY good reasons.


Today I was asked to start a few projects. I was excited and nervous. I am not sure of all the expectations of me, and I was pretty hard on myself. My parents helped remind me that it was ONLY the first day and it takes a while to get everything into gear (3 months). At the end of the day I felt that I had done well. I did however, end up taking a 2 hour lunch break to go sign the lease to my new apartment- not a good first impression!!! They will see that was only a slight indiscretion. Hopefully, they will love me.


Time for bed, I have to leave the house before 7:15am! (my other job had me starting at 9, and i was pretty much always late...) I am due in at 8:30am... yep... thats right, a 1 hour drive to work...


times... they are a changin.